What is a Narcissistic Pervert's dark hobby or interest that they don't talk about?
The darkness of a narcissistic pervert isn't something you can put your finger on. It's an invisible glow that emanates from him...
He secretly, but deliberately, subjects you to tests in an attempt to find a chink in your armor so he can play with you and control you. These tests take the form of "sincere" conversations, during which the narcissist actually disarms you and collects data. These tests also take the form of subtle requests, inappropriate behavior, triangulation, gaslighting, and baiting, all intentionally orchestrated to push you to the limit and take you out of your comfort zone in order to gauge your reaction. "Why doesn't anything bother this person..." the NPD wonders, "if I can't hurt them, how can I control them..."
The narcissist continues to test. He shifts your mood from left to right and back again. He's there, next to you, with his little invisible stick poking you in the ribs, ever so slightly, but frequently. You eventually feel it too, but you're confused: .... How can this person who loves me so much be so cruel? Every time you react (even if you don't react, it's still a reaction), he keeps score and takes note of where he can hurt you.
When they find a chink in your armor, they prey on that chink through sickening bait and games of manipulation, all designed to make you lose your enthusiasm, confuse you, ruin your peace, and get a reaction from you. When you respond with a retort, they feel validated... they feel powerful. "Now who's the one with the problems? Poor you, looking for answers. I won't give them to you, you pathetic person. I'll give you my lies instead, and then I'll give you my silence." A nice dose of narcissistic fodder for the narcissist as they watch you plead for common sense... an expression of regret... understanding... harmony, which you will never get. The NPD now feels like they're in control.
They slowly draw you into their web, away from all your passions and hobbies. Things that contribute to your happiness and character. Months, even years, pass without you realizing it, but you feel like you've lost your identity. You're not yourself, your surroundings are distant, you feel... stupefied. All attention has been channeled towards the narcissist, their agenda, their needs, and their expectations.
You have been robbed of your confidence, your self-esteem, your qualities, your optimism, your worth, your brilliance and your dignity.
This is the dark interest of a narcissistic pervert, which he will never tell you. He deprives you of what you are.
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